Crossroads

I have never seen this coming.
I have never climbed so high.
I have never thought this could
be the crossroads of my life.

I have never seen the choices,
I have never soared the sky.
I have always thought I am
living just to stay alive.

I let myself fall that night,
to be carried by the sound.
I let it all just happen,
without restraint or bound.

I was afloat in the night,
and it was the only route.
I could not hear my thinking,
the din was drowning it all out.

I went further and further,
the music swallowed me whole.
I had to push more and more,
to know how deep I could fall.

I felt my grip slip away,
and my time was running out.
there would be but one instant,
for me to vanquish my doubt.

how long since I slept?
how long since I ate?
how long since I felt?
how long since I cared?

I have never heard the voices,
they have never made me cry.
I have never thought this would
be the crossroads of my life.

I have never seen the choices,
I have never soared the sky.
I have always thought I am
living just to stay alive.

I have never seen this coming.
I have never climbed so high.
I have never thought this could
be the crossroads of my life.