SHOTGUN

Verse 1:

It’s been a rough couple years
Lost a couple friends, maybe it’ll mend
Maybe everything will be better in that space on the horizon
I love my friends, we’re undivided
I guess if you’ve stuck with me through everything, I’m truly sorry
It’s like every conversation, end up sparring
And the contrast end up jarring
It’s just every little thing that I’m ignoring
Stuck in old ways, you’re trying to mend up an Atari
It’s like one night, I’m the fucking life of thе party
My jokes on point with all my boys, the next, at war with еverybody
I’m notoriously fickle and I can’t change now
Why would I try to break my cage now
I give up, you win, I’ll be quiet, let it simmer
I’m worse in the summer than in winter
I been fighting so damn long, I still feel like a beginner
I just wanna have a nice night

Chorus:

Mood swings just abuse me and my loved ones
Truly, I lose sleep, I’m a shotgun
Ready for anything except a good time, good time, oh
I love you, I promise
I swear I’m not heartless
I’m trying my hardest
You pull me up, why do I knock you down

Verse 2:

I regret everything from January to March
Every single last fucking part
I don’t even know where to start
It’s like every time I try to fix myself, I rip someone apart
Like when I cut my bestie, I hadn’t taken it farther
My problem reemerged, I’d already tested these waters
I made up with my mother, still tension with my stepfather
And I don’t think that’ll drop anytime soon
When he’s blocked me on everything, it’s so revealing
Took many rough measures, thought my soul was healing
It’s a lonely feeling, pains of growing, I won’t repeal it
Don’t console me, because I need it
I deserve it, after everything, I should be perfect
So emotionally mature, but my manic episodes making everything a blur
Why the fuck am I like this, oh

Chorus:

Mood swings just abuse me and my loved ones
Truly, I lose sleep, I’m a shotgun
Ready for anything except a good time, good time, oh
I love you, I promise
I swear I’m not heartless
I’m trying my hardest
You pull me up, why do I knock you down

Bridge:

Be the change that you wanna see in others
I’m trying, oh I’m trying
Don’t wallow in misery, be a lover
I’m trying, oh I’m trying
I'm trying, oh I'm trying
Oh, I'm trying, oh I'm trying

Chorus:

Mood swings just abuse me and my loved ones
Truly, I lose sleep, I’m a shotgun
Ready for anything except a good time, good time, oh
I love you, I promise
I swear I’m not heartless
I’m trying my hardest
You pull me up, why do I knock you down