Dear Pops…

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

I’m exhausted from you controlling my thoughts, we shouldn’t have fought,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

Irreconcilable differences, we surely been through a lot,

Damn, what a life we’re living,
Completely separate lives,
I’ll be a nurse in ‘23, finally, but you’re not even by my side,
I’d ride,
Till the wheels fall off,
I’d die,
To relieve your coughs,
Too much pride to send a text, you’d think miscommunication was a law,

I’m raw, pouring out my pain,
Can’t hide my feelings, i don’t use my drains,
Just take me away, i want to be arraigned,
I don’t have my pops, but am i to blame?
Damn, so you see it that way?
Is there a chance that i have some sway?
Over your mind,
Over your body,
Over your soul,
Over camaraderie,

I need my pops,

Do you dream about me at night?
Do you wish that things were different, do you recognize that this shit ain’t right?
I might,
Reach out at some point but you’re probably too busy sparking that joint,
You’re making excuses like a little boy, you have to realize feelings aren’t a toy,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

I’m exhausted from you controlling my thoughts, we shouldn’t have fought,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

Irreconcilable differences, we surely been through a lot,

To have you as a dad i surely was blessed,
In my future, i wish you would invest,
I’m kind & welcoming, i was raised to show absolute respect,
Unless,
That all was for show,
I mean what about me do you really know?
I got a BMW, did you even know?
I got a house did you even know?

I want my pops, do you want me?
I’d trade to have you instead of company,
Is my success the root of your envy?
Is that the reason we became enemies?
Brought down, talking to the lord on my knees,
There’s only so much that comes from pleas,
Can you finally come around to be friendly?
Do you even want me around? tell me

Asking questions, scared of answers,
Did you even know my best friend has cancer?
Debilitating loss, ineffective gauze, did you even know i harbor so much rancor?
Mama’s doing well but you couldn’t care less,
Sissy in school & she’s doing pre-reqs,
We want you to be around but your absence is a deafening sound, man i wish you’d come correct,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

I’m exhausted from you controlling my thoughts, we shouldn’t have fought,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

Irreconcilable differences, we surely been through a lot,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

I’m exhausted from you controlling my thoughts, we shouldn’t have fought,

I need my pops,

I need my pops,

Irreconcilable differences, we surely been through a lot,