Sad State of Affairs (feat. Gabey Baby)

I'm so sick of life tossing me around
This isn't what I really want, not what I'm about
Snap back, flashback now I'm living in another mound
Of guilt and I'm tapping out

My heart is so broken but I carry on
Just the weight of this pain could push me overboard
I'm such a whore for the
Lies that you tell me, the heartache you give me
And I cannot step back and think about how it might hurt if you fucked me again
But I love it

The indication of initiation into freedom
Replicates the key to see beyond the heaven's gates
I'm a sociopathic antifogmatic spiritualistic optokinetic God of self, a master of my fate
Not afraid of dying young, or old enough to hate my life, I'm not alive enough to turn the starter
Start, ignition, drive
Driving mad and accelerating over the cliffs above the ocean
Waiting for the tide to eat away at all the crust
You eat only middle brownies, you are someone that I cannot trust to care about me or my family
Apologies if energy from former enemies is something like a venom, these are things that cannot change
Cutting all of the extremities to muster up adrenaline is something that I'm used to doing
But blood's chump change
FUCK YOUR FEELINGS CAUSE FUCK MY WEEPING, RIGHT?

I'm so sick of life tossing me around
This isn't what I really want, not what I'm about
Snap back, flashback now I'm living in another mound
Of guilt and I'm tapping out

When I take a trip to hell and back I'll let you know
If the fire in the air feels like the Louis snow
It's probably a little better there
Except the gunshots and the drugs and the frigid air
And I'll probably miss you [censored]

Bitch city, so shitty
Crying on and on
Need some vacation fun
Vacation fun, come on

No, I won't take it no
Came too far now my back is on the wall
Slipping, now I'm slipping think I'm about to fucking fall
Then I look up and see you I recall