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36 pills on ma brain 겁이 나는 걸
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl
36 pills on ma brain 겁이 나는 걸
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl

떨리는 손 떨리는 호흡 떨리는 발 떨리는 몸
Pour little boy gotta go devil call 받아
겁나도 컵 안에 다 들이부어

곧 고삐린 목에 칼을 꽂고
Go go to the cloud 천사의 곁으로
의미 없어 밤을 새 적은 나의 곡도
X도 무의미해 그래 나의 돈도

Fuck 그래 난 X도 어려
Fuck 그래 난 X도 아녀
왜 그래 난 할 만큼 했어 더 이상 바라지마
열아홉에 가시밭길 내 발이 다 X창 나고서야
만족하겠니 f*ck 난 그냥 도망갈 거야 right

다 끊고 peace 더는 볼일 없겠지 피
더는 볼일 없겠지 time to rest 조금씩 흐려져 앞이
저기 devil 들이 나를 반겨 곧 구름이 내 발아래 있겠지 fuck it
생명도 모순이야 악순환이 반복되는 거지

36 pills on ma brain 겁이 나는 걸
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl
36 pills on ma brain 겁이 나는 걸
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl

파란 바다 밑바닥
발이 닿아 다시 올랐다가
가라앉아 산소통이 몇 백 개라도 모자랄 거야

하루 수천 번의 다이빙
하늘부터 늪 아래까지
겪기 전엔 절대로 몰라
말해줘도 공감 못하지

공감은 바라지도 않아
내 가사는 다 비웃음거리
언제 다 나앗냐는 듯이
다시 또 줄이나 긋지

모순된 내 모습 거울을 깨부셔 갈아 마셔야지
만약에 내가 내가 아닌 타인이어도
나 따위는 좋아할 이유가 없지

주워 담아 다시 가사들을
무식히 적어낸 가사들을
내 감정에 솔직했던 가사들은
다 쓰레기일 뿐이야 다 버려버려

함부로 뱉으면 안 돼 이제
우리 감정 다 숨겨야 해
내 자아 확실히 잡기 전까진 아기리 닫고 다 f*ck it

36 pills on ma brain 겁이 나는 걸
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl
36 pills on ma brain 겁이 나는 걸
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl

[Chorus]
36 pills on ma brain, I'm often frightened
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl
36 pills on ma brain, I'm often frightened
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl

[Verse 1]
Trembling hands, trembling breath, trembling feet, trembling bodies
Poor little boy gotta go devil call, even if he is afraid
He just pours more into his glass

[Verse 2]
Quick, put a knife in my neck
Go go to the cloud to the angel's side
Meaningless, the songs I stay up all night to write are meaningless
That's right, my money as well

[Verse 3]
Fuck, that's right, I'm so goddamn young
Fuck, that's right, I'm so goddamn young
Why like this, I did what I can, stop expecting more from me
Nineteen years old, thorny road
Does seeing my feet covered in countless cuts make you feel satisfied?
Fuck, I've decided to run away, that's right

[Verse 4]
Leave those all behind, peace
No more seeing blood, no more seeing, time to rest
The road ahead is getting hazy, devils on the other side await me
Won't be long before I step over the clouds, fuck it
Life is inconsistent, a vicious cycle that keeps on repeating itself

[Chorus]
36 pills on ma brain, I'm often frightened
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl
36 pills on ma brain, I'm often frightened
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl

[Verse 5]
Bottom of the blue ocean
Touch down before floating up
When you sink down, even a couple of hundred oxygen tanks would be enough to last
Few thousand dives a day from heaven to the swamp

[Verse 6]
You can't know, until you have suffered
Even if I tell you, you can't sympathise
I don't want to be relatable for you guys to ridicule my lyrics
"If you are doing fine, cut another line"

[Verse 7]
The conflicting look on my reflection
Got to smash the mirror and change the way I am
If I wasn't me, but someone else instead
I have no reason to like the person I am too

[Verse 8]
Going through my lyrics again
Stream of consciousness, lyrics regarding my feelings
Honest heartfelt lyrics
They are all trash now, tossing, tossing them away

[Verse 9]
Now is not the time to share freely, we have to hide all our emotions
Until I find myself completely
I'm keeping my ego to myself, fuck it

[Chorus]
36 pills on ma brain, I'm often frightened
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl
36 pills on ma brain, I'm often frightened
36 pills on ma brain and I love you girl