​cryogenics

[Verse 1]
Life's not what it seems
People act so cold to me
Just try to live, don't treat me as an enemy
I never notice how people betray me
Disloyalty, everyone I know is mocking me
Being hypocritical gets you nowhere in life
Unless you like living in panic, pain and strife
Indifference, distinguish between wrong and right
Deceived in lies, it ruined me
So blindsided, what's happening?
Been like this forevеr, it's saddening

[Chorus]
My heart turned cold, frozеn
Been trapped in a dismissal abyss, can't climb out
I don't know how to cope, I can't survive
Don't know how much time I have left
Nothing's going out right
My life's problematic, I'm on my own
Been betrayed, heartbroken, disowned

[Verse 2]
Only if you knew how my life is
Does having integrity make life better?
Staying strong when life gets hard
All this pain, I disregard
People take advantage of how I live
I lack trust, I live in deprivation
Made decisions that were cruel, made no sense
I don't know if I can commence
Now I live in pain and regret
Is living like this for the best?
When will it cease? Can I finally rest?
Need time to digress
Always having this feeling of emptiness
Been with this pain for a long time
All this pain, it's not diminishing, disappearing
I'm not fine, I'm not myself
I'm not fine, I'm not myself
Can't search for help
All this exertion, trying to improve
Was this all a ruse? Was it all for nothing?
Maybe, I am a failure
Maybe, I wasn't meant to be something

[Chorus]
My heart turned cold, frozen
Been trapped in a dismissal abyss, can't climb out
I don't know how to cope, I can't survive
Don't know how much time I have left
Nothing's going out right
My life's problematic, I'm on my own
Been betrayed, heartbroken, disowned