​merciless

[Verse]
Merciless, cruel, don't put no pity on me
I've been trying to overcome my feeling of dread
I feel like I died, can't be resurrected
Feels like someone shot me in the head
Feeling so alone, this feeling's unknown
My life is gray and dim
My fears are so intense, I'm stuck in the past
A few years ago, I felt so suicidal
I tried to get away
I'm full of anger and it's causing me too much pain
Tried therapy, it made it worse
Out of my comfort zone
Everyone thinks I'm faking, thinks I'm despеrate
Guess no one rеally knows me
Trapped in someone's shadow
Can my fate be determined or is it too late
I'm tired of waiting, someone please heal my pain
Everybody says they hear me, silenced me out
Traumatized for too long, can I still change?
Almost ended up homeless, spare change
I have no future if I can't leave the past
I don't know what to do, depression always lasts
Made so many mistakes, nothing stays the same
Why do I always have to get accused? Blamed?
I'm the living definition of the five stages of grief
Sometimes, I diminished my own beliefs
How much time do I have left?
I've been neglected, overprotected, please cease
Want to live my life, roam free
Tired of discrimination, trapped in a crime scene
People ignore me, but say that I'm seen
People are so ignorant, entitled
Pain or sorrow, which one would you lessen?
Please learn your lesson, there's endless stressing