Romans 8:28!

Shhhhh
Thinking bout the old days
Where would I be without my God
Wouldn't be here today
Not saved
Thank God I called upon his name
Got crucified with Christ so to my flesh I'm not a slave
Sometimes I wish I had no memory
Of the things I did back in the past
Cuz deep down yeah that was never me
I don't regret it cuz it had to be
Lot of bad things happen God turned it around and it worked out for me
Ninth grade started smoking weed
At a young age, I was really only fourteen
Little youngin' breaking all the rules
In the hallway, with some hood dudes
They like Secret let's go smoke after school
They were seventeen and eighteen, way older
Last class, bell rung, put away my folder
We was in a circle took a puff and it was over
Told myself I don't wanna ever be sober
Had a little money started coping it myself
No I didn't want to stop because I love the way it felt
I had changed in my ways if you knew me you could tell
Fast forward, I did something stupid and I got expelled
Time in juvie I was facing
Judge talking bout locking me up plus probation
Back to back court dates, tired couldn't take it
But my God was with me the whole time I couldn't fake it
Let off with a warning yeah my God is so amazing
After that was still tweaking
I'm not gon lie I might of had some real demons
Gang banging, man that's all I was dreaming
Toting guns, for that yeah I was feening
Was falling in a pit and I ain't even noticed
Yeah that life is not what it seems my God had to expose it
My boy Jamari's in a gang
thought it was cool right
That same thing I thought was cool
Took my boy's life
And then my eyes opened up
Jamari really dead man it was hard to soak it up
Like we was just in ISS and we was all laughing it up
Only sixteen can't believe that that's the way he ended up
Told myself that's not the life for me
Cuz I want a wife and to have kids and start a family
Yeah I want a legacy, not to be a memory
I don't want the dust of my bones to be what's left of me
To be what's left of me
Look
Was in alternative school, was up in class
Bros was out here freestyle, I sat back and laugh
God was on a mission yeah my God was on a task
Yeah he spoke through somebody he said "Secret you could rap"
Never thought about it
Never even tried it
"Go ahead get a mic you never know you might like it"
Never had a mic but deep down I was excited
Same day, went home, then I started writing
Didn't know much I was clueless
Mom's old computer had a virus still using it
Downloaded a drill beat, flowing on that beat yeah I was moving
Sent it to my boy he's like "this is real music"
Thought he was capping
Then I went to school yeah I walked up in the room
Bruh my song they was blasting
Yeah I stood there and I started laughing
That was the day I found my calling and my passion
Got expelled it was madness
But without it man this would've never happened
Thank you Jesus
Everything worked out