Suicide Note

Bad day, haha haha

That day you found my body with a bullet in my temple
You screamed out loud, shoutin', doubtin' that I left ya
Reminiscin' the beautiful day that I met ya
The memories of us had swayed into your mental
Played images of us smilin' and cherishin' life
But life ended the divine connection with us
You looked at my lifeless body, and denied it
Shooken and tryin' to stop all of the crying
You stayed with me, didn't call the ambulance for hours
Brain heavy, gripping on the sanity ya powered
A few weeks after my death, you couldn't take it
Dying to relive the memories, tryna' fake it, but
Reality slapped you cross your beautiful face, and
The tragedy dragged you off in mutual place
'Cause when you jumped off of that bridge, I poured tears
Didn't know a spirit could feel more dead

I read the open letter from the folks in my life
They all showed love a few nights after I died
They sat and they tried to piece the puzzles back together
At least my family, the rest laughed together
They smacked they lips, and talked behind my back easily
Sayin' that I had no problems and I was dealing with a blessin'
But they didn't the see the horror and the sorrow behind the guy who smilin' onwards
Too somber for the close-minded
The most lied to me, my folks tried to show more fire in me
But I turned the other cheek, and I denied it
A noose, some pills, and a simple 9 wanted to retire me
Sad thing is - I let it
I grabbed that 9 off my shelf and I - BLAOW!
You'll say that I'm a coward, that I gave up trying
But the suicide letter that I left, stated why