​damage

I want to be a hole in your memory
I want to be a hole in your memory

I keep myself away
From you
I keep myself away
From the thought of you

I want to be a hole in your memory
I want to be a hole in your memory

I didn't cause the kind of damage I'd hoped for
But I still felt somewhere else for days
Trying to bring myself back from nowhere
Or just trying to escape

Did you really not hate yourself?
Your soul's so fucking strong under all your pain
I broke so early
And I still don't feel okay

I still want to be a hole in your memory
I still want to burn myself out of your haunted eyes
I still want to kill my body
And fall so far I'll never make it back alive

I don't wish things had been better
I wish I'd died
I wish there was nothing
To connect me to that life

I can't convey the hate I have for who I used to be
I wanna wreck her mind
So she won't have the chance to become me
Hold me close and tell me everything's alright