Fizzing Over

How do I explain that it's different this time
I'm barely skating by like it's inline
It's been a year since I felt normal and I just wish I
Could fix my life but now I watch it whiz by
When I'm breaking down I grab the pieces and I lift my
Problems up and stack them Swiss high
They eat me up like fish fry
Changing me forever like some Rit Dye
Hard to talk about I close my mouth up like I swish limes
Got me feeling bottled up like minced chives
Sometimes I think I wanna switch lives
But nobody would get why
They see the label but don't read to see what's on the inside
Starved for purpose I see rib lines
I hope I never try to cut it short like mid-thigh
When I think about the days I wanna cry
Acting like it's okay but it's always been a lie
Keep it bottled up but now it's fizzing to the sky
When I lose control I'm feeling like I've lost my mind
Some days are hard but some days I'm feeling fine
The good are few and far so I really gotta try
Just to make it to my car because my life is on a ride
Looking for my heart but I don't know what I will find
Thoughts go in all directions like a sawed off
Looking at old photos and I think the old me's all gone
Always breaking down like I'm John Wall
Try to see the bright side and think about what's not wrong
I wonder why my brain feels fried up like wonton
You try to cheer me up but it's gonn' take more than some pom poms
Lately I've been blowing up like Bob-omb
Think I need a reset turn me off on
Feeling second best like I'm Long John
Wrestle with my mind you'd think it's filled up with the Rock's thoughts
Make myself feel small I'm in an Osh Kosh
Or sell myself short I'm in a pawn shop
If you care about this oddball
I hope you think about me when I'm in the dirt and lawn gone
When I think about the days I wanna cry
Acting like it's okay but it's always been a lie
Keep it bottled up but now it's fizzing to the sky
When I lose control I'm feeling like I've lost my mind
Some days are hard but some days I'm feeling fine
The good are few and far so I really gotta try
Just to make it to my car because my life is on a ride
Looking for my heart but I don't know what I will find
When I think about the days I wanna cry
Acting like it's okay but it's always been a lie
Keep it bottled up but now it's fizzing to the sky
When I lose control I'm feeling like I've lost my mind
Some days are hard but some days I'm feeling fine
The good are few and far so I really gotta try
Just to make it to my car because my life is on a ride
Looking for my heart but I don't know what I will find