Perception Of Madness

All of these screams in my own head
All of these thoughts of being dead
They come in waves soaking my identity
I hope they hear me, as I sing
I'm lost in life
Broken by lies
Haunted by the fact that I'm not feeling fine
My minds a slave
To toxic rage
My madness has been taking over me
Help, please help I'm choking inside
Hey hey hey
I'm tired, so tired of this life
Hey hey hey
I smile but hide behind this lie
Hey hey hey
This mask I shelter all my cries
I'm lost in life
Broken by lies
Haunted by the fact that I'm not feeling fine
My minds a slave
To toxic rage
My madness has been taking over me
I'm tryna escape
I'm tryna escape
I'm tryna escape from pain
Feeling so much shame
While feeling drained
This all just in my brain
I can't give up
But I've had enough
I guess I'm not so tough
I'm such a coward,
Without no power
Is this my final hour
I'm not okay
I feel enraged
I've lost my ways
I've shattered every ounce of will I had to live
A farewell letter might be all I have to give
I've lost so much of me
I feel so useless
Feel so depressed
Feel so stressed
All I want is my happiness
I can't control my mind
It feels like I won't make it out this time
Time
Count the days
For your grave
Kneel and pray
Say his name
Count the days
For your grave
Kneel and pray
Say his name
I never thought that my life would turn out so fucked up and the way that it did
A failures melody with these memories, a coffin seems to be more fit
I haven't slept in 3 damn days
My head has got to change
Look what you've done
Look what's become
Your selfishness
Broke your loved ones
Its clear to see
You're so naive
You thought you could
Just run from me
I'm in control
I took your soul
You did for me
The best of deeds
So listen hear
Let's make it clear
The death of you helped me break through
Burn it to the fucking ground
So much to see
insanity
So much to see bottled in me
This is the constant battle that I try and hide
These are the thing that I've been trying to fight