Hold Back

A collection of truths
Strategically placed
A horde of mysteries and
Some fears faced
A raging battle under
Calm and serene
Often saying what I think
But not often what I mean
I need to see
Reality so I
Know that it's not just a dream
And I lay my cards out
For everyone
But I never am quite what I seem
I hold back
Take hold of dares
As though you're almost done
As if it's the last thing that you'll ever do
And I will always run because
A misguided guide I am
An ignorant lead
I never know what I want
But I'll tell you exactly what I need
Verse 3
And I see you smile
And it makes me nervous
And while I'm laughing the truth is
I don't know how to do this
I have no idea of what's okay
No matter who you are
But you'll never get to know
Because I'll never get that far