Secrets (That Aren't My Own)

You know I hold these in
And I take them for myself
I'm covered in guilt
But it's not my own

There isn't any reason
For me to feel like I'm dying
I'm done with being afraid
I'm done with lying

And I am not an angel
I'm more like Mona Lisa
There's something hiding in me
There's always something behind my smile

And I know that I'm not perfect
And maybe I am the court jester
I'm the life of the party
And I know too much about the court

I have these secrets that aren't my own

So take this how you want to
I'm not here to judge you
I just want to be in love with you
I just want to forget myself

I want to just be ignorant
Please take this pain away from me
Down to the river and out to the sea
Down to the river and out to the sea

And I am not an angel

I'm more like Mona Lisa
There's something hiding in me
There's always something behind my smile

And I know that I'm not perfect
Yeah, I am the court jester
I'm the life of the party
And I know too much about the court

I have these secrets that aren't my own

It's too far to reach.
But I'm too scared to let go.
It's too close to ignore
But I feel so far away now

I'm crawling in the ceiling
I'm scratching through the walls
I'm trying to scream
But my own hand is on my throat

And I am not an angel
I'm more like Mona Lisa
There's something hiding in me
There's always something behind my smile

And I want to be like Venus
To just bare it all and face the world
But I'm tangled in these blankets
I'm caught in between the lines

I have these secrets that aren't my own