Self Medicate

Well my friends hate me for what I've become
See, I've been drowning in love and not focusing on my life
But this morning I took off all of my clothes and cleaned my skin clear
But the stench of you, no it doesn't disappear

So I just wait in my lonely house
No no no, I have no clout to put your pictures up in our gallery
So I go out and place my feet downtown
And the people watch me drink myself to bars and death constantly

And they ask "why you doing this, boy, when there's so much more to prove?"
Well she's never coming back, and I have to finish this half 'cause I paid four bucks a glass
And it's also the only thing that could be sticking around
And I bought cocaine from my friend just the other day

You know, just to let my memory fade so when you come to my place
My heart will beat as loud as it could drum
'Cause, you know, when you talk too much it's like music playing
And it only coughed in my thoughts when you left

You see, I get so depressed when you lie to my face
And I think we'd be very cute, you know, if you'd just let me hold you
And then we could spell out the truth
And if you do this to me again, I might have a childish fit

And you won't find me attractive as you did
No, you need a man, someone on your feet
With high self-esteem
And never blames manic-depression for the way he's feeling
'Cause that's how I'm feeling

So if I told you I found another love
Well you know, just this once, it was right after you're end-to-us art warehouse
And we were dancing and drinking downtown
The lights were blinking so loud

That, for once, I couldn't hear what a girl adored
And I collapsed into the gutter of k street
That's when I knew mistakes were beauty
And I found you more than incomplete

So at this lie was just all a bit of truth
Will you still chase me like I do when you're constantly wrapped in that sheet?
We are the fairy tale that failed, and I constantly keep reading it
So I am the ugliest thing that could ever grow up to be of some kind of being

And you know how perfect we could be
'Cause we could be
Yeah, we could be
Alright, help me out