Delusional

You say you’ll be there but then you ain’t
I waited, seemed like forever, until I was late
Everything that you are contradicts
I’m confused, this way or that way, can’t trust my instincts

I know I’m not perfect but
You act like I’m poisonous
Like I burn everything that I touch
Try so hard to bite my tongue
I just end up tasting blood
I will never be enough

It would be impressive
If it wasn’t pathetic
How are you so delusional?
Say everything that I do
Only ever amounts to
Completely inexcusable
Now you’re out of time, I’ve made up my mind
Wasn’t up to me change so I’m done trying
So, it would impressive
Instead, it’s just pathetic oh
How you’re so delusional

Listed all of the friends who I just offend
But when I, I try to fix it there’s nothing to mend
I shut my mouth, I don’t go out anymore
Need to so badly to talk about it
Got no one to call

I’m closing the door cos I’ve seen it all
Goodbye echoes of the walls
I know what I’m worth, but still the sound hurts
It took me so long to learn

It would be impressive
If it wasn’t pathetic
How are you so delusional?
Say everything that I do
Only ever amounts to
Completely inexcusable
Now you’re out of time, I’ve made up my mind
Wasn’t up to me change so I’m done trying
So, it would impressive
Instead, it’s just pathetic oh
How you’re so delusional