Vacation

[Intro: sampled singer]
I wish, I could take, a vacaaaation, from my mind!

[Verse 1: Apathy]
I learned my morals from a cheater, a liar, and a deceiver
Always seemed to forgive her, but never really believe her
That's why I hook my speakers and wires to the receiver
Tryna escape the fire and not be a vile creature
Barely survive the 80’s, a baby without a teacher
Who's so materialistic, I'm always drivin’ a Beamer
Overachiеver, overseas smokin' reefеr
But had a panic attack and thought it was a stroke or seizure
I battled demons for all of the wrong reasons
Fightin', cheatin', and swearin', instead of swearin' allegiance
I only saw my father on the weekends
And some special events, but my memory's out of sequence
I learned to swim in the deep ends and mastered my defense
But still crucify him when he repents
My worse critic is livin' under this fitted
Defeated fetal position, was sick but couldn’t admit it
Overthink, overanalyze, ruminate
Fumin’ with hate over these stupid mistakes
The most self-loathin' member of the human race
Need Professor X to try to control my Mutant traits
Back to square-one, life ain’t fair, son
Search for higher ground to try to shoot off this flare gun
Maybe a ship will get me off of this place
I'm always in my own head starin' off into space

[Chorus: sampled singer]
I wish, I could take, a vacaaaation, from my mind!
I wish, I could take, a vacaaaation, from my mind!

[Verse 2: Apathy]
I had enough meds that never work, friends who end up jerks
Supposedly famous, but I don't get all of the perks
My heart’s racing off of Ritalin, spiralin'
Bring me to the ER, call the medics or firemen
I feel panic like, shooters are firin'
At me with accuracy of Boomer Esiason
Boomers are retiring while I exist Check to Check
A nervous wreck 'cause the future looks violent
Nervous attachment, circuits are crashin'
Searching facial features for a certain reaction
Readin' too deep into nothin', it's straight buggin'
But my brain stay buzzing like a circus attraction
Losing my shit but on the surface, I'm laughin'
And searchin' for anything that could serve as a distraction
(Stop playin' with my mind!)
Feelin' just like that line from Terror Fabulous ~ "Action"
Relaxin', cool as a breeze through palm trees
While I'm tryna get away from these fools and zombies
I'm super paranoid, so the hammer is on me
Tryna clear all my karma so spirits don't harm me
Back to home base, life ain't so safe
I can't imagine tryna navigate it with no faith
It's pure hell, too awful to face
That's why I'm in my own head starin' off into space

[Outro: sampled singer]
I wish, I could take, a vacaaaation, from my mind!
I wish, I could take, a vacaaaation, from my mind!
A vacaaaa...... mind!!!
A vacaaaa...... mind!!!
A vacaaaa...... mind!!!