Son of Misery (RED)

Apoplectic
Yeah my heart is septic
Now my life's affected so my mind is hectic
Yeah your absent figure I mighta overstressed it
Gotta pain in my chest and I cant address
Got hate in my veins when I feel contested
And if i see your face its gonna be unpleasant cause
I'm gonna tell you what nobody hasn't
You're a selfish bitch and we'll never get past it no
What do you tell yourself
So that you sleep at night
Is it that I'd be alright without you by my side
Would you have ever of thought that'd make me weak inside
And while I'm sorting this out
You're just out here getting high
And I always blamed myself
For you not being there
Causing eternal despair
Now I'm a whole grown man
Still i dont understand
How you can run from your kids
I can't forget and forgive
Bring that shit in
Here we go again
No one listenin'
The adrenalin
Got my limbs tremblin'
Under the impression
That I'm less than
So I question
Every single thing that led me this direction
Trynna get it together but I procrastinate
Then I hesitate
Always at a stalemate
Doomed to a destined fate
I bet you never will atone
While you busy makin mistakes I'm trynna hold my own
And its hard to do this shit alone
I don't know my worth
I will never amount to a thing
I'm trapped in a world that's taunting me everyday
Struggling just to get by
Emptiness then replaced all my insides
I
Have traits from your worst sides
I see the world through your eyes
I hold hands and slow dance with misery
She twist and turns with her eyes set on me
The music stopped and she showed her jagged teeth
As she whispered
My name is grief
MY
NAME
IS
GRIEF