Drowning

Calling me up.
It’s not enough.
Waiting till the zannies calms it down.
Coughing up blood.
It’s getting rough.
Feels like I’m floating but I’m on the ground.
Say I’m insane.
Say I’m a monster.
This is what you made me crawl into.
Deep in my skin.
Nail biting sin.
Get me to a doctor make it soon.

You make me feel like
The doors are closed.
Break me or chains.
Just let me breathe.

Nananananananananana
This isn’t me.
I’m not a freak.
Nananananananananana
I wanna leave
My own body.
Nananananananananana
I’m sneaking out.
You’re tryna chase me.
Nananananananananana
You creep at night,
Keeping me drowning.

Waking me up.
3am sucks.
Waiting till the panic leaves me now.
Getting me drunk
With a boy I don’t love.
Take another pill till I’m lost and found.
Say I’m crazy.
Say I’m a loser.
This is how you made me hate myself.
Look in my eyes.
Iam not fine.
Only you know why I’m really dead inside.

You make me feel like
The doors are closed.
Break me or chains.
Just let me breathe.

Nananananananananana
This isn’t me.
I’m not a freak.
Nananananananananana
I wanna leave
My own body.
Nananananananananana
I’m sneaking out.
You’re tryna chase me.
Nananananananananana
You creep at night,
Keeping me drowning.

Time to hang it up and
Get into my senses.
You don’t know my past
And my future isn’t yours.
You don’t own me.
Can’t control me.
Now you lost me
I pray you away.

Nananananananananana
This isn’t me.
I’m not a freak.
Nananananananananana
I have found me.
Love my body.
Nananananananananana
I’m living free.
No one is stopping me.
Nananananananananana
I sleep at night.
No more drowning.