Quiet

Written by: Amanda Victoria Eppolito

Damn I wouldn’t wish this on my enemies
It’s really got a hold of all my energies
Funhouse mirrors and counting calories
Remembering how to think in therapy

Stunned at how once I wasn’t haunted
Making dinner plans wasn’t a project
Holidays not spent crying in private
Survival mode wasn’t always on and

I can’t keep it quiet
Will I live to hear the magnificent silence
No I don’t know when it came on
Got louder as time went on
I’ve made friends with bathroom tiles
And enemies with grocery aisles
I can’t keep it quiet

84 days since my last square one
I’ve been alright but always ready to run
I know emergency routes like the back of my hand
And bomb shelters are forever prepared

I can’t keep it quiet
Will I live to hear the magnificent silence
No I don’t know when it came on
Got louder as time went on
I’ve made friends with bathroom tiles
And enemies with grocery aisles
I can’t keep it quiet

I can’t keep it quiet
I remind myself there’s others who wanna hear the silence
Let’s go on day 85
Peel ourselves off bathroom tiles
Hold hands in grocery aisles
We’re not the voices we hear inside
That can’t keep it quiet
We’re gonna hear the silence