Peace In Drowning

It started with two hands
Laid in the bed
Surrounded by all the newsstands
Listened to Em, I was the new Stan
Didn't realize to be guided I'd have to lose my mans
Chemo rested next to loose crayons
Now people ask me what's right for my new brands
Like talking about my pain gonna make me lose fans
Truth is trauma made me a new man
The only opinion I care about now is my Nana's
It started when I was five
Thought I had nine lives
Had to fight for mine's
Put me in a coma, thirty days I looked inside
Learned from an early age never to ask God why
But that's so hard when you're dying inside
Hard when you're fighting your pride
Hate loves a tempted mind
No one to wipe all our cries
Held my sisters through tough times
Your own spirit's why you got to forgive
I had to die to realize I'm the boy who lived
Yeah I'm the boy who lived
They'll take all they can get when they got nothing to give
They'll tear you down when their without the power to lift
Outside the tragedy is where happiness is
Do it for the kids
Don't do it for the whips
When you pass they won't be quoting your Benz
Do it for your friends and do it for your family
I'm not perfect, but I'm trying to be all that I can be
When God lets you down
Promise He won't let you drown
When God lets you down
Promise He won't let you drown
I don't give a fuck no more
No you can't kill me
I don't give a fuck no more
I guess we're gonna see
If you run up in my spot
I know that you got a lot
I know you some dirty cops
I know you some fucking opps
But no you fucking not
I'm a fucking god
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
I would rather go home and sleep
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
No you invited the old me
Don't bore me
Cuz sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes the party ain't what it made out to be
Sometimes, sometimes, some, some
Is he awake? Is He awake?