Before I Go

Countless possibilities of how I'm wanting to succeed
Staring down the mothership and hoping that I cope to free
All of my intuition into the passion that I bleed
But I'm chained upon the shackles of my own anxiety

value thoughts of those who don't care over those who die for me
For facts that they created with intent to neglect me
So I separate to travel time with my mentality
To understand that all I have is horrid insecurities

That I never really handled since I was cradled into the arms of a mother who's life was fatal, pushing the universe outside her crevice but couldn't handle the gravity to understand the sun that she found in me

all that pressure now resides in me to hopefully believe
That I'm the one prophesied to truly sheen
My confidence will only grow with self-belief
Which'll learn to take me steps that's only thought but not conceived?

But you know d-o-u-b-t
Taking me through avenues to never reap
Into the callings that I always feared to make
So I look at my own eyes, cannot move cuz I'm enslaved by other peoples perception

Reason I'm always stressing
Reason why I'm protected
Introducing a child is the birth of every judgement
Forcing myself to plummet

To become brave, I must first face myself
So can I do it for my own health?