Falling

So close and only you knew the sound of my heart beating
Myself up for cursing the mornings feeling sick of you
If only I knew
If only I knew
That you couldn't stay
Little did I know you would be taking away
Why does it feel like I'm falling
Everything around just crashing down from underneath me
I prayed for you every night
I longed for you all these years
I begged on my knees and cried all my tears but it was not enough
I loved you before I even laid eyes on you
Stole my heart before your heartbeat filled the room
If only I knew
If only I knew
That I can't hold you
Or even smell you
Why does it feel like I'm falling
Everything around just crashing down from underneath me
I prayed for you every night
I longed for you all these years
I begged on my knees and cried all my tears but it was not enough
I long to hold you in my arms
How can I go on without you
You left a void inside me
How can I ever love someone else again
I feel like such a failure
I was supposed to give you life
How can I ever love someone else
I will never forget you
Why does it feel like I'm falling
Everything around just crashing down from underneath me
I prayed for you every night
I longed for you all these years
I begged on my knees and cried all my tears but it was not enough