Rehab or Relapse

Hi
My name is BAE
Uh
How's everybody doing um
And I'm addicted to love
Relationships
Or whatever you wanna call it Um
I've been sober for bout maybe a year and a half
Something like that
Um but if you wanna know more of my story, here it is
I… I don't know where to start
I got too many feelings inside of my heart
Really think it's too large
I know too many women say I left em scarred
Really ripped em apart
I never wanted to part
Truth is I been in the dark
I really needed a spark
I really needed some help
Forgive me for all that I done
I really ain't been myself
And I thought that you were the one til I had no one left
Been in love since a lad
All that love that we had
You forever my lady
You know I love you crazy
Then you went out and had a baby
Then she had my baby
I swear I thought she was the one
Then she had my son and I had to tell her we done
And I thought my next was the best
She got caught up in her text
Then she turned into my ex
And she made it hard for the rest
I should've gave it a rest but I thought shawty was blessed
We fell in love off the sex
I could've bought her a ring
Shawty was down for the team
Shawty was down for the dream
All the way down what you mean
She treated me like a king then went and switched up the scene
Switched up on me I'm like damn
She put it all on the gram
And I really said I was through then I ran into you
But you was still running from him and that's some shit I couldn't do
But I wasn't running from them and I know you want me to choose
I know that you missing me
Know that I'm missing you too
At some point you honestly just have to get your shit together because
It's not fair how you
You you come in peoples lives and
Well I'm not even gone talk about other people
Because I don't know what you do with other bitches but
It's not fair how you come into somebody's life
And try to tear down these walls and
You know um encourage me to let my guards down and let you in
And all of that stuff
And then
As soon as I get to that point
You put your fucking walls up
And then you play so fucking much
It's hard to tell when you being serious
That shit is exhausting
It's real exhausting
So at some point i feel like you just need to make up yo mind
What the fuck do you wanna do
Like
Do you want to
Do you really wanna have that emotional vulnerability with somebody
You encourage me to be vulnerable with you
But you're not vulnerable with me
And I understand we're all so scared to be hurt cause
This shit scares the fuck outta me I swear it does
It scares the shit out of me
So
Either stop doing that shit or
Just be real