Fully Sent

Looking at the past now
Wishing I was passed out
I don't think I want it back
Never gonna catch me lack

Fully sent
I'll never spend my life
Wasting all that time again
I Never meant
To push away so fast
I'll be lost to the very end

I know, excuses
But it's all that I got just excuse this
So stupid, no usage
Looking back at all the times I was useless

I don't wanna be just like before
Begging for myself not to be ignored
I don't think I want this anymore
Losing sight of what I'm looking for

I'm only losing faith in the process
Feeling out of place out of context
I never look around at my options
Too focused on the past it's obnoxious

All I know is how to live in contrast
Now I'm speeding down the wrong path, I'm moving way too fast
I tell myself to quit it over and over again
But I don't really have a plan
Just deal with it the best I can

I'm falling back in my grave
The home I built to stay
My thoughts left in decay
No rest, I can't escape

I'll have to go and draw the line again
It's all about respect, something missing to begin
I wish I had the patients just to play pretend
But it's harder than it looks, it's so draining in the end

But now I'm stepping out of my place
Just in case, the thoughts I kept inside were made with mistakes
I replace, every bridge I've built that burned down with hate
No other way, to understand the reason nobody stayed

Looking at the past now
Wishing I was passed out
I don't think I want it back
Never gonna catch me lack