Never Found

My mind keeps running off with ease
I scream to make a sound
But the silence deafens me
Just looking for some air to breath
Nobody cares it seems
That I'm living carelessly
Without you

My mind keeps running off with me
I miss the here and now, my head's too high up in the clouds
I wish I wasn't so obsessed
The cycle never rests
Something I never would've guessed

I don't know why
These feelings stick around (doubled down?)
I don't know why
I haven't drowned

So here I am
Headed down this one way road I dread again
It's like it's always been the plan

The message that I put out
Gets buried in the ground
Just looking for some way out
The comfort never found
(The exit never found)

I always try to fill up
The holes I dug deep down
Just feeling like I should of
Reached out and asked for help

Got me living like I'm closed up
My chance is wasted now
I'm Way too focused on the come up
To lose my grip somehow

I watch the years pass quietly
No need to make a sound
Cuz the silence deafens me