Jokes

Say what you did but I know you didn't mean it
Know that I should but I'm not sure what to do yet
These days I have more control but
I fall into the same mistakes
Started out as a joke until it's not

Try to make sense but there's no way to believe it
Wasting my guilt on someone who doesn't need it
It's gonna take me so long
But I don't care if I get it wrong
Started out as a joke until it's not

Felt bad I didn't think before I spoke
Try to help when you don't even need to talk
Know there's nothing to do right now
But feel like I need to fix it up
Started out as a joke until it's not

Knocked down twice now never gonna not be dumb
Drink to forget why you didn't want to come
I try to explain myself and still come off as a hypocrite
Started out as a joke until it's not

Dropped out cause you knew that it would get brought up
Don't know when you shouldn't be the one to talk
I ran out of sympathy for fucked up kids who won't help themselves
Somebody who you knew and then they're not

Found out for myself
I fall hard
I'm not scared
I crawl up
I can't stay quiet
How far