Fear of Sleep

I've lost my mind so many times, it fits and pauses
I've joined a circus in a bid to find the causes

Kinetic vision;
Fleck of spit in my face at twelve
As apoplectic hands hang a choking portrait of an alien on New Year’s
Petit bougie nonchalance; 
not their home and not their place
Learned a lot about speaking out and being spoken for

These weeds won’t leave, and I’m senile

You count in hours, boy you ran for thirty thousand
Hooray; endless nights and sunrise!
You were my academy

I'm bleeding friends;
“Like who needs them? I traded brightness for mild antipathy and cultural detritus!”

Kinetic vision; it’s happening in southern shores, it's happening out west

I made a deal with death, that he'd segregate me
And I'd forever be a divide; endless nights and sunrise
You were my academy

I had fear of sleep, I dreamed, I used to tell stories
But then I got old
Now I'm lapped by the tides of resurrection

I used to beam youth through a satellite
It was 1999