Chasing Waterfalls

I'm too scared I'm too scared
I'm too scared to care, I'm too scared to care

Sometimes you got to lose it all so you know what it meant
Sometimes you got to fall to remember how to stand
Girl you kill with me your love
Watch your heart turn into sand on the path to self destruction it's hard to understand
Time play tricks on memories heart turned negative degrees
I don't want it if it's easy, change my mind like seasons
Cash out for no reason, balling like the big 10
Lie to me like CNN I want to believe it
I can't hit the reset, back and fourth like swing set
I serve like I'm Sinbad tryna find my area
I done took a L oh well, can't go into detail
Work harder than retail she go back than oh well
Get over it I won't dwell still blow the socks off its burn up like a campfire can't show you my soft side
In my fury I lost ties
My feelings like Logan Forsythe
Now you got me hog tied, think about you all night

We been here before, chasing waterfalls
I'm gone answer every time that you call
I'm having a reaction like a cough
We don't talk and then we pick it up where we left off
I know something big is out there, take my soul
You can't combat time, let it take it's toll
I can't worry about these things that I can't control
I won't lose faith, I'm at the mercy of my emotions

My mind filled with doubt I know I can stop
My paranoid front doors got automatic locks
I was so sacred of ending up in the same spot
I just need to take a second can't let my brain rot
And I know that my soul is pure it's like a thousand diamonds
I had to get away miles away now I'm on that island
And now its hard for me to concentrate heavy eyelids
But I still try to find the beauty in the silence
Now I'm blowing through that red light no sirens
And I can see both sides like I'm FaceTiming
It's a lot of up and downs but I got to ride em
I just put out good intentions I materialized em
Manifested I ain't fantasize, fantasize
If it don't work out, it's no ones fault but mine
I just count up all my blessings watch the stars align
And I'm just writing my own testament no dotted line
I got a bad one look like Dolly Parton, beg your pardon
It's funny when I care too much when it stings the sharpest
Try to play like everything just cool is when I hurt the hardest
You'll know the pain of nurturing you while I was still starving to get past the darkness

We been here before, chasing waterfalls
I'm gone answer every time that you call
I'm having a reaction like a cough
We don't talk and then we pick it up where we left off
I know something big is out there, take my soul
You can't combat time, let it take it's toll
I can't worry about these things that I can't control
I won't lose faith, I'm at the mercy of my emotions

I'm too scared I'm too scared
I'm too scared to care, I'm too scared to care