Dear Body

Started when I was a child, watching my mom go on a diet
I thought maybe I should try it
Dropped a size and lost my mind in the process
Waking up afraid of change
I put all my self worth on my weight
Living on compliments from strangers
Self criticizing in the mirror years later

Toxic secrets, I made you keep
I starved you out, when you needed to eat
But now that I see it
I wanna set you free

Dear body, I just wanna say I'm sorry
Cause I'd never do this to somebody else
But it's easy to hurt myself
(Oh oh)

Dear body, you're taking good care of me
I wish I could say the same about you
After all that I put you through
(Oh oh)

I said, you were too big
Then you were too small
Too many curves
Or none at all
Why was I so cruel, when you're me and I am you
I'm sorry, dear body

I dragged myself back to the gym, when it was therapy I shoulda been in
I've never felt good in my skin, and I still wear a t-shirt when I swim
Ruined so many holidays, skipping the birthdays cause of cake
Counted every last little taste wondering when it would show up on my thighs or my face
I know better, now that I'm older
But in photos, I still hate my shoulders
Oh I wanna heal this
I wanna set us free

Dear body, you're taking good care of me
I wish I could say the same about you
After all that I put you through
(Oh oh)

I said, you were too big
Then you were too small
Too many curves
Or none at all
Why was I so cruel, when you're me and I am you
I'm sorry, dear body