The Motivation

I was waiting for some kinda sign
Some kinda indication I was wasting my time
I got myself up out the basement
I faked it long enough to say I made it

I was patient, I put up a fight
I kept saying to myself, oh, the future is bright
I confronted everything that I was faced with
And put it off another day

I don't know why I don't start, but I can't quite
Seem to open up the communication
I wanna try so hard, but I can't find
Anything to give me the motivation

I took medication, went under the knife
I tried to straighten up, I even took your advice
I honestly and humbly engaged in
My slow and steady rehabilitation

I hesitated, what a surprise
And then I think I kinda took my eye off the prize
Spending all the time I shoulda wasted
If I'm gonna throw it all away

I don't know why I don't start, but I can't quite
Seem to open up the communication
I wanna try so hard, but I can't find
Anything to give me the motivation

You've come a long way just to leave all of this behind
If you hold on too long, it only gets harder to decide
Before you're gone, why don't you try living your best lie?
You're only looking the other way 'cause the future's still too bright

I don't know why I don't start, but I can't quite
Seem to open up the communication
I wanna try so hard, but I can't find
Anything to give me the motivation