Anxiety

I can't stop thinking of where I went wrong
And I can't forget it for so damn long
The question will always remain in my mind
I'm not just able to leave things behind
If I say I need space maybe it's a lie
When all I really want is someone by my side
And people they mess with my fragile mind
And they can't see that I'm screaming inside

You can make me a victim of your lies
But that doesn't make me weak or outsized
The only thing that you have proved to yourself
Is that you can send someone further into hell

Now feel the fire of my rage
'Cause I'm so sick of being in this cage
That my mind has my imprisoned in
I'm always thinking out of it but I will never make it outside
Of these walls in mind
Where anxiety is beating me down inside
This thing is eating at my insides, taking it's sweet time
Making sure I cling onto life
Oh I'm never gonna flip the switch
Anxiety's a fucking bitch

I'm always believing that things will go right
But then it goes and tells me I'll never see light
You think that you know me, got me all figured out
But what you don't know is, I'm swallowed by doubt
Every damn second I fall through the cracks that my mind makes up
And it affects how I act
I'm always second guessing
And I'm always under-stepping until I am overstepping
And by then I need a blessing

I'm always second guessing
And I'm always under-stepping until I am overstepping
And by then I need a blessing
'Cause I think I'm underwhelming
But I'm really overwhelming
And it's like a secret weapon that I don't know that I'm using
And it keeps on just repelling
All the people that I'm telling
All you people, I'm rebelling
This disease that has been dwelling
In my mind since I was just a kid
It manifested but it hid
Until I realized it did
And to it a farewell I bid