I Don't Know
Can't breathe no more what's this life for?
I don't know if I should stay or go
Mentally demented in this brain that he gots
The pain wouldn't stop
Was tortured by the rain when it drop
Put a gauge for the thoughts, blast it
It's gone in a flash
Hoping to smash his feelings and
The hope that he had the dopest in rap
But couldn't never focus on that
Was too distracted by the smoke
That was chokin' his past
When his heart was broken, yeah
Shattered like glass
Hiding his face with dark
Shade glasses and hats
But no one deserves the fucking
Way he was raised
Prayed every day, his tears never faded away
Filled with hate and dismay
Never couldn't handle the pain
So much stress
Trapped in this animal's brain
Damaging himself, only hell remains
Til the end, motherfucker
I had felt the pain
Fighting demons in my brain
Turn myself insane
Writing stories about my life
I won't shout my name
Can't breathe no more what's this life for?
I don't know if I should stay or go
I'm an emotional wreck
With evil feelings of pain
The acid rain drips on my soul
Leaving stains on my brain
Hopefully to maintain my captions
Sustaining the real me
Feelings kicking in after
Thoughts killing my conscience rapidly
Accidentally puncture my lungs
From the start, I'm doing my part
Keeping my heart together
Grip glue, from the start
In this dark, I can't breathe no more
Wondering what this life's for
Living six feet under with this corpse
Back's torn from the
Former ashes, backlashes
Trying to backtrack to what happened
From the early days, it's a maze
I can't feel through this haze
It's amazing what the human body has to give
I have to live
Half the battle is trying to win
My devotion is trying to get rid
Of everything that wouldn't last
My past sticks with me
Through this mass attack
The tracks leaving my soul hoping in fact
Can't breathe no more what's this life for?
I don't know if I should stay or go
You try to complete me
Delete me from your memories
But you need me
How the fuck can I be your worst enemy?
Possessed enough energy
After to build some sense in this
I had a style before the
Feelings killed my sentences
I still remember shit like it was yesterday
I digested pain
Waited for about five days to
See if it ever changed i had my better days
Figuring what I needed most
Writing until I developed arthritis
And my fingers broke
Needing this hope, living I know
Smear the blood in my raps
Continue writing this song until
I fucking collapse
I felt nothing, it was all nothing
Nothing seemed to work straight
I was a failure that came outta
My mother on my birthday
(Doctor, doctor, look
We have another retard)
Equip me with a bicycle helmet and
A pair of knee guards it seemed hard
But I adjusted to being fucked with
Threw my feelings away and stab
Myself in the stomach i loved it
Can't breathe no more what's this life for?
I don't know if I should stay or go