Darkness

They try to make me see that I'm a self-destruct
But I don't want to hear it from the ones I distrust
The money might be evil but it's good enough
Got everybody looking at me now with disgust
I've been holding it all in…somehow
I wish I could end this shit…right now
It makes me too emotional
I just want to let it all go
But I've been drained…flushed into darkness
I've sunken
Spending
My impulse
Buried but I feel so torn when alone
You ever felt so lost
I need a damn map for my life right now
I don't see no positivity in sight right now
And I don't got nobody that's by my side right now
You ever felt so crossed
I been stabbed in the back had to pull the blade out
I don't follow any plans til it's all laid out
Bout to switch it up again never mind the safe route
I been dealing with myself in my head again
Been a struggle just to get up out of bed again
All the memories I want to just forget again
All the things I gotta do to be a better man, you get it man
I remember playing ball on the black top
Then it comes to the fall and I'm mad lost
Fell too hard gotta get back up
And you better trust, when I do that I'm a blast off
But I've been drained…flushed into darkness
I've sunken
Spending
My impulse
Buried but I feel so torn when alone
You ever felt so done
Felt so fed up that you wanna run
Felt like you just can't do another one
Maybe even wishing that you were another one
I am there
Sick of life and pretending that it's been fair
Sick of lying to myself saying friends care
I'm like the avatar, the only one who bends air
Nobody relates, now I'm ripping out my damn hair
Isolation, feeling psycho
No vacation, no time bro
Got patience, but this time no
The gutters getting muddy hope you like the high road
You ever felt so low?
So low like you're caught up in a chokehold
Time to pick it up now and I won't slow down
Make way as I'm paving my own road
But I've been drained…flushed into darkness
I've sunken
Spending
My impulse
Buried but I feel so torn when Alone
Left in the darkness
Left by the ones that were heartless
Now it's got me feeling like garbage
Find myself laying on the carpet
Left in the darkness
Left and it got me feeling heartless
Left and I felt like garbage
But I'mma get back up regardless
Just watch this
I've been holding it all in…somehow
I wish I could end this shit…right now
It makes me too emotional
I just want to let it all go
But I've been drained…flushed into darkness
I've sunken
Spending
My impulse
Buried but I feel so torn when alone