Piñata

I beat myself up just like a piñata
Honestly I do not need a reminder
Talkin about it is helping me nada
All that I want is to see the mañana

I beat myself up just like a piñata
Honestly I do not need a reminder
Talkin about it is helping me nada
All that I want is to see the mañana

When I'm alone I don't feel like I wanna
I get to shakin like I'm bout to samba
I can't be happy from all of my trauma
I beat myself up just like a piñata

I'm so numb that I can't bleed
I can't talk to my family
I been lookin for candy
If ya don't understand me

That means I been lookin for somethin sweet
When I know that shit just ain't fuckin sweet
I can't fuckin sleep

I keep my thoughts to myself
No one's at fault but myself
Thinkin bout offin myself
I did this all for myself

I can't lay off of myself
I'll call the cops on myself
Cuz I can't solve it myself
All that I wanted was help

How can I blow out the candles when I think I shouldn't be breathin
How can I know how to handle the person I never believed in

I just been off of my rocker
I'm shaken up like maracas
I need to talk to my Mama
She knows how

I beat myself up just like a piñata
Honestly I do not need a reminder
Talkin about it is helping me nada
All that I want is to see the mañana

When I'm alone I don't feel like I wanna
I get to shakin like I'm bout to samba
I can't be happy from all of my trauma
I beat myself up just like a piñata

I just wanna get it over with
Someobody show me the ropes
Never wanted all the sober shit I should be over it
But I can't find a better way to cope

I'm workin everyday to let it go
How can I demonstrate if I don't know
How to feel better safe or in control
How can I renovate I'm never home

I stay at the Lowe's
They won't help me fix it when it's self inflicted
But I never knew that they could tell the difference when I felt as distant as I do

I don't need television just to tell a vision
I got tunnel vision and my one condition
Is to kill what's missin

I been hopin that it's me
I don't think you had a clue
I'm not holdin back for me
I been holdin back for you
This is what I have to do

I'm in this shit til the death of me
That's coming soon I can't live on what's left of me
I can't go on any longer
When I know

I beat myself up just like a piñata
Honestly I do not need a reminder
Talkin about it is helping me nada
All that I want is to see the mañana

When I'm alone I don't feel like I wanna
I get to shakin like I'm bout to samba
I can't be happy from all of my trauma
I beat myself up just like a piñata