Love and War

Before bed I'd read'em the letters though they could not understand
They seemed to hear your voice coming through them

Oh I was so excited to see you, knew what I was gonna wear
Picked my outfit out for months before

Lord help me I've tried
I tried to stand before you
But you're not of the same mind
That carried me to our bed
And I look so hard right at you
For some sign that you're coming back

Went to fight, gave it all I could
For the common man, for the common good
But what I actually did was unspeakable

The man I was is far from sight
Too many wrongs can't make a right
And I don't want to ruin your memory of me

God help me I've tried
Tried to stay alive
For sake of my bride and the wee ones at home
But now I can't shut my eyes
Cause then I see it all again

God save me I tried, tried to relieve youI left the rope tied, and the chair in the corner by my bed
I don't want to live but I can't leave you, so here I am