Big Joke

I never know what I want, I never know what to say
I told you I got to go, but now I think I'll stay
I couldn't figure it out, I question what I believe
I drew a picture of God and I don't know what I see
Look around at the life I chose
Try to fight but that's the way it goes
Fake smile and a bloody nose
I'm a big clown, I'm the biggest joke
If I told you the truth, I wonder what you would think
But I just swallow my pride and spit my blood in the sink
I think I figured it out, what you don't want me to see
I drew the face of a clown and it looked just like me
Look around at the life I chose
Try to fight but that's the way it goes
Fake smile and a bloody nose
I'm a big clown, I'm the biggest joke
Look around at the life I chose
Try to fight but that's the way it goes
Fake smile and a bloody nose
I'm a big clown, I'm the biggest joke