Choose a Side

I can’t choose a side
What is wrong or right
I feel
Like I am paralyzed
Chained to my favorite lie
I can’t stand to see how people lie to me
How can it be
Broke my trust
Familiar tables turn eventually
Start it real slow
Early birds
Coming to my show
They didn’t know
What was going on
Reactions so cold
Layin my dreams down like a first snow
Thought they heard a lie
Nope, nope
Didn’t feel my nose grow
No convictions inside
All I heard was
Humble down, sit down boy with that pride
Why don’t they listen
Thought I caught a vision
Don’t
Tell that’s it’s gonna work out
Just to get me out of your face for a minute
Can I take a moment
Let me think
Don’t
Talk to me when I am asleep
I don’t wanna miss a part of my dream
Beats hitting hard so go on get to clapping
Why praise something that won’t even happen
Tryna put me on the stand but I got my alibi
Napping cuz I got God my attorney
On the side now I take a bow, ya
Got 12 listening, mom and my dad
Ya, Crush my dreams as a kid pretty sad
Won’t let it derail me cuz He got a plan
Should I hide
Should I
Should I lie
Should I
Threw me in a deep pit but when I rise should I
Keep my gaze fixed on you
You hurt me, I hurt you
Should I drink this poison, blinded or looking at you
I can’t choose a side
What is wrong or right
I feel
Like I am paralyzed
Chained to my favorite lie
I can’t stand to see
How people lie to me
how can it be?
Broke my trust
Familiar Tables turn eventually
Take a deep breath
Open my chest
Full of bad deposits while I’m
Cashing my checks
Scales are feeling off-balance
Out of my line, thank you, next I
Don’t wanna hear nothing about
You should have done this or should have done that
My happy heart has turned black with a stabbed back
Took the knife out, let the wound bleed out
Ay! Better check that
Keep visiting all my grudges
On a platform, hear all my judges
I don’t make deals with my God kept
Dreams, just moves
Open your eyes, you'll see
I am, without all apologies
Make 'em bow, everybody now on their knees
Broken scales breed grounds for tragedies
Swipe that greedy money-making mentality
Should I hide
Should I
Should I lie
Should I
Threw me in a deep pit but when I rise should I
Keep my gaze fixed on you
You hurt me I hurt you
Should I drink this poison, blinded or looking at you
I can’t choose a side
What is wrong or right
I feel
Like I am paralyzed
Chained to my favorite lie
I can’t stand to see how people lie to me
How can it be?
Broke my trust
Familiar Tables turn eventually
I can’t choose a side
What is wrong or right
I feel
Like I am paralyzed
Chained to my favorite lie
I can’t stand to see how people lie to me
How can it be?
Broke my trust
Familiar Tables turn eventually
Leave me in that coffin
While my bones are rotten
Ain’t no stopping, while I’m keeping track of all my disappointments
I've got options
Should I hide or should lie or maybe leave my coffin
Handed me the keys my destiny is greater than this agony
Ain’t nobody wanna notice me
Keeping to your motives tryna sell me now I’m free
Covering this wound has brought a ton of memories
Got rip it off get a better cleaning when I make it right
And tell you that I’m on the road to healing
Doing what I got to do to get ahead
And Knowing I’m not looking up to you
I look beyond the ceiling of my pride and my grief and my failing belief
But you better believe that I
Thought I died
But I
I survived
Still I
Wrestle with my jealousy and my pride
Still I
Lost my way, I came through
Left my grave, forgiven you
I guess miracles still happen now boy ain’t that true
Ya I chose a side
And I’m satisfied
Now I am alive
Till I die