Life

Being me is a problem
I close off, I don't like talking
I walk into a commitment with caution
It's the same to say that I'm heartless
But the thought of getting hurt again is taunting
And now, because of you, I'll never know if this is all a game
Sent me to hell, I'm burnt in flames
I burn down, down, down
You asked why and I replied
I have a past that tends to taunt me
It's all for nothing
Lately, I feel lost, tell me if you find me
It's hard to put the past behind me
When my mind just sits there and keeps reminding me
Of all the stuff that I kept inside mе
I'm not lying when I tell you I feel like I'm lost
It just feels likе I'm trapped in my thoughts
I just sit there and think, and I think, I lost it all
I am at home, I got my back against the wall
I feel super alone I got no one to call
And I'm still on my own because no one's involved
Tell me, where do I go when everything falls?
I guess that's why I'm making this song
I just sit and reflect on every single thing that went wrong
My best friend, he turned out to be a fake
The real definition of becoming a snake
And I lost God too and that was my mistake
I put music above him and it took his place but now he is coming back
Lately, it feels like I just been wilding out
There are too many things that I'm finding out
And my passion has been slowly dying out
And I'm still inside of a hole and I'm climbing out
Just to stumble over, but I'm trying now
Lost my composure, so I write it out
I'm feeling depressed and I'm hiding out
I think that's why I'm crying out
Time has been so cruel
I could've blamed me but I blame you
I guess I'm to blame, can't lie to me
Walk in the room and they start eyeing me
Feeling overwhelmed with my anxiety
So I stay to myself and I overthink quietly
I stare in the mirror and I vent there alone
You say you been there when I'm on my own
You say you'll be there when I know you won't
And you say you love me when I know you don't
I swear this depression isn't a joke
Anger too, I deal with them both
I have been losing my faith and my hope
Still haven't found a way I can cope
'Cause, I lost everyone else that I thought I would always keep close
And to think, I gave you all that I can
You took advantage of me and ran
I made you who you are now I ask
What would you flip on me I don't understand?
Told me never again, never reach out for a hand