Not Alright

So this is how it happens, you turn your head and you lose direction
And now I feel like a captain, who's lost his way to the ocean
And I remember falling for you like a drop of rain in California
Will we be the same again?
Let's go back to where it began, back to the first time I saw you
Your eyes reflected the Deep Blue
I hope this carries me through

Cause I'm not alright, and the moon don't hang as high
As it did when you were mine

Called to see how you've been, as if to ask for your permission
To close my eyes and listen, to the life I've been missing
I remember laughing with you, fake tattoos in Petaluma
Can we stop and play pretend?
Go back to when we were friends
Back to your room with the window, where I told you I loved you
I just sometimes wish you knew

That I'm not alright and the moon don't hang as high
As it did when you were mine

So I say I'm sorry, for everything I can't be
But now I finally can see, how much that you mean to me
And then I say I miss you and that's the most I'll admit to
From a seed this tree grew, I will never forget you

But I'm not alright and the moon don't shine tonight
Like it did when you were mine
And my blood's the darkest wine
That we drank on the shoreline, just wait and I'll be fine