Long Division

[Intro]
[Verse 1]
It’s freezing cold and it’s getting dark
It’s a long crawl through the front yard
From the front door to my old car
When I get there I bet it won’t start

And I’m feeling old, too old for this
I thought we’d outgrown this kind of shit
The crying and the screaming
And the long, sickening silences

[Pre-Chorus]
We were just kids when we first met
And we’ve just been kidding ourselves since then

[Chorus]
Because when it isn’t meant to be
You’ve gotta force that fucker violently
In love and God and happy thoughts you gotta pretend to believe
And if it were up to me
I’d be someone else entirely
But if you’re dwelling on the past
You’re better off losing your memory

[Verse 2]
When I dream about our dream house
I’m on the front porch by myself
And I try the door but I’m locked out
There’s a stranger living with you now
And I wake up in a cold sweat
On a cold couch or an empty bed
Or in a coffin with a closed lid
Drawing flies while you’re painting the town red

[Pre-Chorus]
We were just kids when we first met
And we’ve just been kidding ourselves since then

[Chorus]
Because when it isn’t meant to be
You’ve gotta force that fucker violently
In love and God and happy thoughts you gotta pretend to believe
And if it were up to me
You’d be someone else entirely
But if I’m dwelling on the past
I’m better off losing my memory

[Verse 3]
And I talk to you like your father talks to your mother
And just like them it’s hard to understand what we ever saw in each other
And you look and me like my mother looks at my father
With a mix of disdain and regret as you strain to remember why you ever bothered

But I’ve got half a mind
To halfheartedly apologize
Because there’s part of me
That wants to try to make it right
But it’s been wrong so long
It’s a losing fight
So take me at my word, for what little bit that’s worth
And we can go our separate ways
Yeah you go to hell and I’ll go to waste

[Outro]
And if I were the last man on Earth
You’d still be better off alone
Because nuclear winter ain’t nothing
Compared to another winter in this home