The Worst Thing You Can Imagine

Another year winds down
And the winter wolves are at my door
It feels like they never went away
I’m afraid they’ll drag me back to the endless nights
And the sickness of each day

See I’m trying to live with an unwavering strength from within
Leaving the old me to die
Sometimes the darkness in my mind finds its way out
Reminding me that no matter how hard I try

I’m drowning in a sea of smoke
I’m burning, when I try to breathe I choke
I hear the laughter but I’ve never been in on the joke

I’ve been living in the past
I need a shock to my system
I need the villagers at my door, screaming, “Kill him, kill him!”
I need the worst thing you can imagine to happen to me
I need something to quickly and violently take me out
Before I crack from anxiety

Quickly and violently
Before I crack from anxiety

With such little motivation
You bring my pulse into question
You’d think I died long ago
I’m as alive as I’ll ever be
I thoroughly plan my ambitions
Without a second glace
You’d never known

Well I’ve pulled inspiration from the most depressing and darkest sights
From desperate souls contemplating the end
I shake off every horrible thing I’ve done with a simple “Live and learn”
Then I fuck it up
Yeah, I just fuck it up again

I’m drowning in a sea of smoke
I’m burning, when I try to breathe I choke
I hear the laughter but I’ve never been in on the joke

I’ve been living in the past
I need a shock to my system
I need the villagers at my door, screaming, “Kill him, kill him!”
I need the worst thing you can imagine to happen to me
I need something to quickly and violently take me out
Before I crack from anxiety

Quickly and violently
Before I crack from anxiety
Quickly and violently
Before I crack from anxiety