Make Believe

[Instrumental intro]

[Speech by Mark Henick]
I climbed back down the other side again. I had very few choices in my life, but this, this was certainly one. And I needed something, anything, that I could be certain about. So I turned around, and I felt the trialing pressing against my back, just below my shoulder blades. I stretched my arms out on its cool, metal surface. I remember feeling rain drops under my fingers. I look down at my shoes, my running shoes were old, worn out, tired. My heels were on the concrete, my toes were on nothing. I look past my toes, to the ground, fifty or so feet below and on the ground i saw a rusted-out chain-linked fence, topped by three strings of barbed wire. As I was standing there, in that moment the only thing that I could think in my collapsed perception, the only thing I was thinking was "how far out would i have to jump from this bridge so that I wouldn't land on that fence". Because I just didn't want, I just didn't want it to hurt anymore. In that moment my entire life was completely in my control. And when you're living in a hurricane like this all the time, that's a really unfamiliar, but really satisfying, feeling. To feel like you have control over your whole life

[Instrumental outro]