The Death of Hope

I had hope
And that is so unlike me
I walked in late
Well it could have been early
When my heart hit the floor
I gave up

I'm tired of feeling sick
So damn sick of feeling lonely
I tried to fill the holes
That we have dug in me
Surprise, surprise. My back to an unlocked door
I give up

I am not what you'd call a fragile man
You can't count these scars on just one hand
I'm a fighter
I'm a lover
I'm not in love with this struggle
I really fucked this one up this time
There's no apologies for the dead
This cross is mine to bear

Now, it's been some time
Since you have seen me down
So let's hang for a while
I give up
And I'll lie with this smile