Christmas Vacation

You were depressed you were really messed up
You know I understand
But why did you not talk to me
Why didn't you help me prepare for the nightmare

You took a vacation into oblivion
You were so low and I felt like I didn't know you
Christmas vacation you took a vacation from me

Once it ended I mended myself
But is keeps falling back down off the shelves in my head
A twinge of pain now a shudder of disgust
As I shield my eyes from my own memory

I knew all about your plans
I really did understand
But you didn't let me know
I wasn't invited to go
Christmas vacation you took a vacation from me

I watched in desperation as you stumbled before my eyes
She needs beer, she doesn't need me I finally realized
My anger and pain in all your fun, you couldn't recognize
I stopped caring long before you started to cry