For Nineteen Years

It's been nineteen years too long
I can't keep waiting on you
To be who you say you're gonna be
Taking up my energy
This victim blaming me
I can't go on like this no more
No more
What do you want from me
A fucking apology?
As if I was the one in the wrong, the wrong
Is this who we are now
Why can't you be more for me
I thought you would be my ride or die
Is this who we are now
Why can't you be more for me
I thought you would be my ride or die
Went from understanding you
To "Quien eres tu?"
I don't know who you are no more, no more
Shifting phases like bipolar
Use me like a damn controller
Knock me down just like a bowler
That shit hurts just like my molars
All this chaos in my brain
Nothing seems to stay the same
So I ask myself everyday, everyday
Is this who we are now
Why can't you be more for me
I thought you would be my ride or die
Is, is, is who we are now
Why can't, w-why can't more for me
I thought you would be my ride or d-d-d-die
This is who are we now
You were never more for me
I thought you would be my ride or die