Masked

Sit down and watch your mouth
Nothing more, do what you're told
In hopes to keep us safe from the demons we unfold
These monsters
These creatures
Lurking deep within our heads
Brought to life as we transmute ink with pen

The smiles, the lies, the tears, the fears
Drowning her mind at night
Do I follow the parasite into the darkness
Or follow the tunnel down into the light

Your comfort was his only existence
Regardless of how she falsely presented

I spent my god damned life
In hiding for your sake
I just can't go on
Living my life this way

I've built myself up through these echoes
Twenty eight years, tell me where did the time go

You made me feel so alone
With nowhere to go
Like a heart with no home
So you know it ate me from inside
All these secrets that I'd hide

You gave me no reason to trust you but it was only a matter of time

How can you say that you even miss him
He was nothing but a parasite
A freak disguise meant to normalize the lies

I have become the best version of me
Someone you will never see
You're so focused on that age old mask
I am not my past
I am not who i was back then
I am not just another facade
A myriad - of self hatred