3 A.M.

I was up in Orlando
I saw many scandals
But nowadays all of that's average
No handle on life
Homeless and fiends walk around city lights
But still sleep on the corners at night
I can admit that nobody should suffer
But we make decisions that throw us in gutters
My childhood consisted of beatings and discipline
Now you know why I can't blend with your friends
But see then again
I'm isolated
No Gilligan
Giggling and thinking that soon I'll be winning man
Here we go
Same thing all over I guess
But it's all that I know
I was never taught drugs
How to bust up the slugs
How to become a thug
But I'll beat down the bug that can buzz in my ear causing many distractions
Not going off course for the worldly attractions
Waiting and waiting was me everyday
I was working
Now I'm in L.A. and my love's above all of this
All for my future kids
I would give anything just to secure my gift
Then again
I would give everything up
Plus my way to go vent
When nobody would listen
I didn't go dissing
Instead I did me till they noticed the difference
Forgive me my God for the sins I committed
I know that there's more
But it sounded convincing
Confessing our fault is what makes us forgiven
But nowadays pride is what kills us
No kidding
There's moments I think and it's deadly
A lethal injection with thoughts are a sure way to end me
But no
I'm not ready to perish
I'm building a legacy
One that can carry what I believed

I lost hope
But not my life
How can I be set free
Time can turn
My skin will burn
I'm human
I will bleed
3 o'clock
My sleep has stopped
But dreaming will proceed
My eyes can't see
I barely breathe
It's 3
My spirit leaves

Me losing hope is significant
Ponder
I wander the best of both worlds
How magnificent
Is it maleficent being malevolent
Tell me the wrong from my right
What's benevolent when we're surrounded by bad
It's irrelevant
Growing in music has made me feel better than all of my moves as a rookie
I'm tryna be veteran labeled
A legend
I never went begging for clout
So don't lemme hear negative things about El from your mouth
I was born to be something
When they said I'm nothing I told em keep talking
I will overcome it
I noticed that 2018 is my season
I bring to the table a plate full of reasons
I should be the artist that's grinding the hardest
Remember when money was dryer than leaves up in August
When cash didn't come I was writing from day to the night
While I prepped for my studio time
I would lock myself deep in my room building strategy
Writing
Producing
I worked till I fell asleep
Now I'm still doing the same
But this time it's the money for flights from my home to L.A
I've been getting uncomfortable
Chasing convertibles might be the dream of the blind
It's affordable

I lost hope
But not my life
How can I be set free
Time can turn
My skin will burn
I'm human
I will bleed
3 o'clock
My sleep has stopped
But dreaming will proceed
My eyes can't see
I barely breathe
It's 3
My spirit leaves