Ugly Tears

I hope you know just what you're getting
I think you better read the fine print
Cuz I ain't a prize, no I'm a package
Better brace yourself before you open it
I hope you know just what you're doing
Cuz I've got issues
Don't we all
cnd when it really comes down to it
cre you prepared for everything that I'll dish out

Had one too many leave
Now trust is never on my side
cnd I-I-I
Got trauma and baggage
cnd doubts living in my mind
cnd I-I-I

I cry ugly
There's nothing pretty about me tonight
When things get messy
Will you still want me by your side?
Mascara stains on hoodie sleeves
When it rains it pours on me
cnd I'm sorry
I can't be perfect all the time

Hope you know I'm not trying to hurt you
But sometimes it might feel like that
Cuz I hold back what I'm afraid to show
Until it overflows and floods where you stand

Got insecurities and grief and anxiety
cnd I-I-I
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't breathe
When something's bothering me
cnd I-I-I

I cry ugly
There's nothing pretty about me tonight
When things get messy
Will you still want me by your side
Mascara stains on hoodie sleeves
When it rains it pours on me
cnd I'm sorry
Wish I was perfect all the time

When I'm a mess and not pretty
When I'm in sweats and not in jeans
Scared you won't love me for me
When I lose myself and start to scream
When I cry myself dry till I'm weak
Can you promise me that you won't leave

I just hope you don't choose to run
When I let you see my ugly sides
I hope you know there's no one else I'd trust
To help dry these ugly tears tonight