This Is Me

Last week I had a thought I'm 20 years
Thats old enough to start
Imagining and plenty fears
Or will I go cause I don't
Fit in here with any peers
Know theres more to life than smokin
Weed and drinkin many beers
And partyin but what else to do
When the allure of the
Fame isn't helping you
Wish I could tell Jay-Z I see myself in you
I started with a dream and now
I'm tryna be wealthy too
But it's tough when your balancin it all
And walkin down a tight rope
You balance bought to fall
The labels keep tellin me
I'm talented and all
But I need another candy girl
To really have it all
I'm hungrier than ever for a check
And plus my situation's not at
All what you'd expect i work my ass off
I'm always stickin out my neck
Cause they say the real currency
Ain't cash but respect
But if you have one without the other
That means that you're a stupid motherfucker
I hate bein' broke, but havin' all the fame
And not havin' to deal and
Have to be the blame
I wanna win bread and bring it home
So after all we can live right
And give half of it to mom just to get right
And just to prove to her
I know she wasn't psycho
For always supportin' this dream
She was right though
But it's tough when life's as
Stormy as the weather
And her health isn't gettin any better
And everydays a struggle
The most recent trouble was her job
She called me cryin, told me
She was layed off, god
But she told me, keep my spirit's up high
She workin I'll just keep on
Pushin aimin for the sky
And people wonder why I spend everyday high
Cause my life isn't how it's supposed to be
But I try
Keep feelin that I'm livin life wrong
But then I stop trippin as soon
As I hit the bong i go out to the club
Pretend my problems all gone
I see chicks at my shows
Know the words to my songs
My new girl told me "G" please promise me
If we gon' be together
You gon' have to give me honesty
And honestly I'm tryin baby listen
But it's bitches everyday that see your
Spot is where they wanna be
I'm tryna do the best that I can for you
I feel that you deserve that
And I care for you
Cause while a groupie might love
You when your big soon as the fame goes
They ain't there for you real
A rappers girlfriend, bad spot for a wife
And this is just to give a
Snap shot of my life
For all you haters gossipin
And speakin all freely
Feelin like you know me cause
You listen to my CD
Because I'm in the lime light
You can go and start
A bunch of fuckin rumors
Shit is rippin me apart
On one hand I don't give a shit
The other one I'm sick of it
This is just to tell you
What the business is, this is it
This is it, yea I'm sick of it
See my biggest problem is that I give a shit
If I ain't care I swear
I'd probably be fine
But instead, this shit is killin my mind

Damn

And that's real

This is me